tight situation.

can i die now? i've been repeating that to myself lately.. but no, i don't mean it at all. i'm sure all of us have experienced being in a tight situation at least once in our lives. well, i am kind of in one now and it just feels like some part of me wants to escape from all of it.. yknow, run away, take the easy way out? but then that's what i've been doing my whole life. so i guess this time i should just brave this situation and find a way to get it over with.

it's almost one, and i can't get myself to sleep. i'm tired but i'm having some sort of neurosis again. i need sleep, and i need to wake up early tomorrow but my mind just keeps on thinking and thinking... i need work, i need to do something productive, i need a better way to spend my time! i honestly feel f*cked up. and in probably a month from now, i'd feel even more fcked up. as how one of my american classmates would say: "fubar!" (it means fucked up beyond all recognition) i don't feel fine. im not okay.. i didn't even feel like joining my friends at the club tonight. if i joined them, i would have spared myself from this feeling at least until tomorrow noon.. but nOooOoo.... anyways..........

this morning in class, we had to tell a story in chinese. as usual, i didn't prepare for that. so during the 10 minute break, my seatmate and i were cramming for one. i told the story of the 3 little pigs. haha.. it's pathetic really haha but then since this was almost impromptu -- i had to depend on what little chinese i know.. haha! so when i reached the part of the story where the big bad wolf tries to blow the piglet's house down, i said: ta shuo "wo yao HUFF, wo yao PUFF, wo yao chui ni de fang zi xia qu!" that was funny hahaha wala lang.. i couldn't translate one line in chinese though: "not by the hair of my chinny chin chin!" hahaha!